Life is a Bitch.

Thursday, July 29, 2004'♥

*yawnz*
suppose 2 meet them at 530 at pavillion.
but i rch dere lyk...abt 720?
wahaha...hehz
played pool but din rly play
ran into melvin downstairs..surprise tat he noe f.m s well
hahz..
mood swings getting from bad 2 worst lately
it sux big tym
haikz wateva...carn b bothered aniwae

Zombie@7/29/2004 10:43:00 PM

Wednesday, July 28, 2004'♥

played game boy most of e tym in sch today
so fun...hehz...=x
our "mini-laptop"
so lame can!hahaz.
suppose 2 go out aft sch
but not feeling v well la...den juz go makan tepan yaki wif dem
den go home liaoz
yawnz...so tired
tmr got b.z.f test
havent study...dunch intend 2 aniwae..=x

Zombie@7/28/2004 06:36:00 PM

Tuesday, July 27, 2004'♥

sch was kinda slack
been picnic-ing in klass these daes
hehz..so fun
was lyk kinda shivering during a/c lessons
cnt tahan..wana smoke~~
so xin ku can...den lie down n slp
den e t'cher walked over n lyk tot i rly sick coz my face v pale
haha den happily sleeping till class is over.*grinz*
was smoking outside mrt station aft sch den i throw e bud on e floor
den tis stupid guy came ova ask 4 my identity card n stuffs den take down my particulars
wateva~~asked so much den sae if u'r not a student u will b fine at least 200 buck 4 littering u noe?
wateva la...u tink i care?fuck off man asshole.
den kelvin called sae he v sian...mit him at bout 7 plus at tamp
walk here walk dere..den slack ard den f.m call den tok craps
den got 2 noe sometink which rly pissed mi off!
hup she will change n tot she changed aft so much
but i was wrong.y muz she put words into my mouth when she's e 1 who said it?
carn she juz haf e guts 2 admit it?lyk wat sia
damn damn damn damn tu lan!

Blinded by the sorrow
How can I be smiling like before
When baby, you don't love me anymore
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
As I wish I never found you
How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on
Before anyone will ever hear Me laugh again

Zombie@7/27/2004 09:31:00 PM

Monday, July 26, 2004'♥

went suntec kbox wif kelvin & liyi aft skool
sch was alrite but tt mrs heng sux...tat bloody witch!
early in e morn attacked me lyk nobody biz
nearly late 4 sch la..den havent tie hair wart
den she came over she was lyk..ur hse no dressing table ar?dont comb hair in public hor.
den i was lyk yayaya...shit ass...is combing hair in public a crime?
nvm...den she caught my hair colour...fuck man...
den i said i dye baq already wat~den she goes...ya u probably bought e maroon colour rite
fine~
den sae...ger...u r still so young~no nid make up...
4 hell sake all i use is e eye-liner & abit o concealor
n so mani ppl out dere put make up lyk gg chiong
y me!~??
fine la...juz ignore her n continue tying my hair
den aft assembly she came over agn col me take out my nose stud
wa laoz...was already very pissed
den she goes...y ur skirt so short!!!u stand up~
fine i stand up la...my skirt aint short wart
den she got nth 2 sae but col mi sit properly
wth..i sit cross-legged not nice enuff meh?
den she finally asked 4 my name
i bet she's gonna come aft me agn
who cares...section head big fuck arz...bloody old assy witch!!!
irritate e hell out of me & spoil my dae juz lyk tat!
n i was lyk already not in a gud mood liaoz...att. 2wards her lyk fuck...
though very rude la...but she deserves it!
chicken backside man..
got lotsa a/c h/w siaz...but heh...carn b bothered 2 do...
tv prog. more impt. =x
havent been eating 4 e whole dae already
but not hungry at all...y lyk tat...=<
juz feel lyk drinking & playing some stuffs...
if onli i can...well...mayb...soon?
hahz...haikz...=<

Zombie@7/26/2004 08:22:00 PM

Sunday, July 25, 2004'♥

I miss you like crazy
even more then words can say
I miss you like crazy
every minute of everyday
Boyl i'm so down, when your loves not around
you're all that I want
you're all that I need
can't you see how I feel
can't you see that my pain is so real
when I think of you, I don't know what to do
when will I see you again

Zombie@7/25/2004 10:04:00 PM

'♥

damn ultra tired but still carn get 2 sleep
*sighz*
met jacko at bdk slack ard
den suddenly juz feel lyk sitting bike la
den col her friends kelvin & wats-his-name come fetch us
heez
den slack ard
full of entertainments...damn funny siaz they all
but more den half o e tym...i was tinking bout some other stuffs
haikz...sucks
m i being sensitive or wart..
i dono...i juz HATE e wae im feeling rite now
HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT LYK FUCK!

Zombie@7/25/2004 03:57:00 AM

Friday, July 23, 2004'♥

went tiong bahru eat this steamboat wif liyi,janice..n zhikuan..
den they went town n we went bugis
my blisters were killing me..walked damn slow
but still..i had fun
was staring at my comp listening 2 my songs..stoning 4 tis past 1/2 hr
my mind juz went blank

Zombie@7/23/2004 11:06:00 PM

Thursday, July 22, 2004'♥

juz came baq frm miting nana..
so sorry gal nv pei u go eat
was feeling real damn lethargic
feeling kinda emotional rite now
*haikz* dono wats wrng wif me
y m i feeling tis wae

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

Zombie@7/22/2004 06:41:00 PM

Wednesday, July 21, 2004'♥

heavy downpour tis morn
damn idiotic
gota sit on e floor 4 e racial harmony lil concert in e m.p.h
wth..so uncomfortable in tat bloody skirt
n e concert sux sux sux 2 e max
wasting my tym nia
went down makan during foong lesson
carn b help la
we were rly starving lyk hell
n e lamest tink is we were dismissed in less den a min aft we returned 2 klass
lyk wa laoz...muz well dun go baq rite
sickening fool...he's so irritating.carn stand him
stupid old man!
well..was bitching abt some peeps e whole dae
hahaz din noe we were so san ba
but they deserve it!!!
hahz.
sch dismiss early 2dae...at 1
suppose to mit ivy n mel
but in e end nv
den mit mr yeo at sing. post
he bought ball-ball 4 me..
yum-yum *grinz*
haha...slack ard s usual
damn tired...if onli dere's a bed in front o me
i sure lie down n juz sleep dere liaoz
hehz.
can slp longer abit tmr..coz lesson's at 10
juz tat bit nia..hahaz.

Zombie@7/21/2004 10:11:00 PM

Tuesday, July 20, 2004'♥

still carn get to slp worz
sch was fun 2dae
got lotsa entertain frm kelvin..
acting lyk micheal jackson
haha..stupid la
crapping awae all dae laughing our ass off
den he power siaz
bluff t'cher go toilet but go dwn buy food
hehz..was so hungry!!!
bought lays
yummy
hehz..went 85 wif yeo zhi kuan
wahahahaha
=p
eat his ba chor mee n satay
walked to sac bus stop
oh man..i miz sac~!
=(
now my school lyf lyk got sucha big diff frm sac lyf
haikz..sian sian
tmr racial harmony dae
hehez
sch frm 8-3
haikz...sickening
but now still lyk damn jing shen
hope wont oversleep tmr siaz
no money take cab liaoz.

Zombie@7/20/2004 11:09:00 PM

Monday, July 19, 2004'♥

went j8 4 lunch aft skool
den went bugis wif liyi,kelvin,fengming n terrence
shop shop ard..weather so hot man!
den my bag so heavy..
can faint manz.
but nvm la..kinda haf some fun ba
my eye bags getting more n more jialat le
very paisae...
so damn freaking ugly
argh..
*yawnz*

Zombie@7/19/2004 04:59:00 PM

Sunday, July 18, 2004'♥

Bloody fever's baq agn
damn pek cek
dont know wats wrong agn
juz carn get to sleep long when i'm lyk... feeling so tired
sighz..
tried not to think so much liaoz
but still e same
wadeva siaz
tmr got skool agn
8-12...sux la...
gotta wake up early agn
haikz
if onli my hse's "portable"
everywhere i go..
juz gota carry tis lil controller den press e button
my hse will juz appear rite in front of mui
in less den a min
den home sweet home!!!
hehz..
so cool...but ya ya i noe i'm dreaming agn..
sot pluck..
n'wae..was slacking at home 2dae
dunch feel lyk gg aniwhr la..
*haikz*
when will e old nat be baq
i hate my lyf now
i hate myself
i hate everytink
juz when will she b baq...
=<

Zombie@7/18/2004 09:05:00 PM

Saturday, July 17, 2004'♥

juz woke up not long ago
having tis terrible hangover now
si bei sianz
broke an egg juz now
so damn suey can
den gotta clear up e mess
argh.!!
ytd went town mit yijian
n i was late 4 lyk 1/2 hr?
hehez so sorry boy..
but aniwae had fun wif him la
tt crapper crap n crap throughout
hahaha..damn lame but v funny can..
den went bdk meet ivy at bout 10 plus..
slack slack tok tok
tt ger...such an ass...
kip using some ppl name 2 'ka jiao'
hai dun tok abt it le
hahz
meet jacko n went down 2 fisherman at lyk 12 plus
jocelyn n her friends were dere already
n is e b-dae o 1 o e guy over dere
hahaz
ordered barrels
drink alot sia...carn even stand up straight...not 2 sae walk straight
tt guy kana sabo..damn comical siaz
lolz
kinda happy enjoying but at e same tym..im feeling so emotional..
they were playing nth but sad songs all thru e nite
haikz...
=<
gonna take some rest 1st...ltr gg tamp..
i wana eat my ball-ball..
yuummyyyyy

Zombie@7/17/2004 02:28:00 PM

Tuesday, July 13, 2004'♥

got spot check 2dae
tot will kana send home
but hehe =x
they were lyk saying "nat ur hair v nice..sure kana 1"
wah laoz..freak siaz
was so damn worried can!!!
juz kept fidgeting ard..cursing n swearing at those d.m
den finally!!!we can go baq class liaoz!!!
nth happens!
wOoooO hOoooO!
=x
went out 2 smoke aft lunch wif jianliang n his friend
n tt ass was lyk also saying.."ehz y u neva kana caught huh?"
fuck la
is it rly so red..
oh wateva..e spot check is over so who cares~!
had a heavy downpour aft sch
stuck in sch 4 dono how long
den liyi called cab n drop me at kallang
took train back
so damn tired..
tmr's another long dae
wth..
*sighz*
is lyk so no lyf now siaz..
=(

Zombie@7/13/2004 06:39:00 PM

Monday, July 12, 2004'♥

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Un-break my heart oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on

Zombie@7/12/2004 04:13:00 PM

Sunday, July 11, 2004'♥

slept 4 lyk..more den 12 hrs already
but m still so tired
*yawnz*
look more n more lyk a zombie
=<
well..tink lame-ass jacko can b a fortune teller liaoz
hehehez
coz HE actually talked 2 mi online juz now
juz s wat she predicted tt dae
oh gawd..
=x
very sick.
got sch tmr..sianz
but nvm...8-12 onli
4 hrs den can go home le...*yipeeeee*

Zombie@7/11/2004 10:49:00 AM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004'♥

feeling real damn lethargic
=/
sch was so tiring
4 goodness sake gif us a fix classroom can
changing rooms every single lesson realli irrtate e hell out o mi!
i'm juz 2 lazi 2 move ard la
=x
nearly late 4 sch 2dae
heh..but..manage 2 rush in in tym
*heng* siaz
nv kana detention or wateva shit
but gotta tie up my hair
bloody hell!
n guess wat..
i nearly slip n fall from e stupid stairs at the dono-wart-theatre!
wa piang!!!
wateva.
so fuck up!
2 hrs o a/c lesson 2dae aft lunch
fuck man
tot i will nv touch a/c agn
but wat is tis man!
ARGH!
took cab down 2 town wif liyi
wana faster go buy another pair o shoes 2 change
coz our cloak shoes were killing us!
*weeps*
damn shag liao..
smoke smoke le den go home le
so guai rite
tis few daes so early home
haaz..=x
tmr sch's starting at 10.
good manz..can slp longer.
=p

Zombie@7/07/2004 06:36:00 PM

Monday, July 05, 2004'♥

1st day o sch sux~!~!
i swear it rly rly sux!
games r so boring
so wu liaoz can
tink wat we still lil children?
juz show us whr our fucking classroom is n let mi slp la!
fuck siaz
lucky i'm in e same klass s liyi
hehz
stupid siaz making an ass out of myself when we were checking our class
initially i cant find my name
search n search
den wa lao liyi was lyk "dere!natalie chong!"
i dono y can
my index no. was lyk 17 n hers was dono 8 or 9
when my name starts wif C n hers G
sick man
haha
make mi worried 4 nth
den e orientation prog started
S-U-C-K-S
den e worst worst worst worst worst tink is..dere's no yandaos in my klass
assholes
whateva
gonna buy my uniform tmr..
can mix n match
haha so good!
k la gonna bathe den gg tamp 2 mit him
so tired..
*yawnz*

Zombie@7/05/2004 03:59:00 PM

Sunday, July 04, 2004'♥

went 2 take my IC fotos
eyebags so jialat
ma chiam zombie..=(
went bugis aft tat
window shopping ard den slack till bout 11 plus
sianz.v v sianz.
rch home bout 12 plus
den lyk juz less den 15 mins mellinsa called
*faints*
went 201 mit her
slack slack
damn tired siaz
nth much..
1 more dae
sch gonna start le
sucks
how's lyf gonna b dere??
i miz lyf in sac
so fun
=(

Zombie@7/04/2004 03:03:00 AM

Saturday, July 03, 2004'♥

rch home @ 5 plus 2dae
den din go out liao
so guai rite..hehz..
is so not me lor...
but m 2 lazy 2 do anitink.
sch's starting on mon
fark man
sux sux sux
so sianz...
*yawnz*

Zombie@7/03/2004 12:02:00 AM

Thursday, July 01, 2004'♥

heyhey juz got home
so damn fucking tired
went parkwae ytd
n yah full o crapz slacking wif salimah n co.
lolz
we were lyk sitting at e bus stop dere toking abt tis grp o 'G-S-T'
dunch noe how 2 spell it in malay but it means tose typical malay bengs
so disgusting
den suddenly 1 of tose morons came asking 4 my no.
lyk wata hell?!
yucks!!
n bloody sal was lyk laughing her ass off
balls la u!
wa lao!
lucky van came juz in tym..
den we went b.k wait 4 tt super late bitch christina chan
den rayne n cuifen joined us
crap ard s usual n some ppl juz leave mi dere lor
~!~! wateva ~!~!
kinda pissed so din sae bye 2 them
went his hse
gosh lyk so damn messy can ur room!
haiyoz
lazy bum nv tidy up
*bish*
feeling so damn hungry in e middle o e nite...2 plus?
den he went out n bought cheese prata 4 mi.
haaz
den went baq 2 slp le
so tired..
well..its mellinsa ng yue yue b-dae 2dae
happi b-dae gal!
i luv u!
take lotsa care o urself ya.
.muackz.

Zombie@7/01/2004 04:55:00 PM